Don't Give Up

Words. Words have never come easy for me. I have a hard time expressing myself. I tend to draw a blank. I don't have a wide vocabulary. I tend to keep to myself because of this. At times it comes across rude or that I don't care or that I'm just shy. Words have always been a struggle of mine. So, bare with me as I write...

Music. Music has always been a way to help me express my feelings. Music helps me cope. It helps me deal with whatever life has brought me... hard times, sad times, happy times, lovely times, confused times, and so much more. It's almost as if I'm in a different world. I appreciate every note. I learn so much through music. There are times that I can't sing along because I am so overcome with emotion. It's a way for me to sit at the feet of Jesus and rest in Him. 

I am listening to a song right now called "Don't Give Up" by Shawn McDonald. 

This season has been quite challenging for me. I have felt so overtaken. I feel like giving up. 

I have had a busy year with full time school, being a military wife, a mother, a homemaker, bill manager, a daughter, a sister, a friend, and now trying to build a career on top of all of that. I have fallen down many times and it seems like I can't get back up. When will I overcome? When will I reach the end of this journey? I'm really not sure where the end is. I don't know what that looks like. This song reminds me that I've come so far and God has a plan. I can't deny it and I can't give up. I need to just hold on. He's kept me going this far. He's provided. He's been my stronghold. 

I'm now listening to another song by Shawn McDonald, called "Beautiful". It's a song that I have held close to my heart for years now. I listen to it a lot at night when I can look up into the stars. It speaks so much volume to me. It just reminds me that God is so much bigger than I can even imagine. He is so beautiful and what am I to be called His?! It helps me to refocus and gives me perspective. There are so many bigger things going on that God has His hands in... but yet, He holds me in those same hands. It brings me to tears every time.  He truly is beautiful. 

 

Life has so many ups and downs. Remember that God has His hand in it all. He never promised that life with Him would be easy. It might not be exactly what we planned. It might be really hard at times. There may be storms that make it seem like we are drowning. BUT there is hope. He called out and said "TRUST IN ME" and we are able to walk on the waters with Him. Keep your eyes fixed on Him and nothing else will matter. Life with Him is the path to an eternity of no pain, no tears, no storms, no loss, no sadness, no hurt. Forever in His hands.